I did it
I really did. I got my ear pierced. I won't go into details of when or why. The fact is I have always wanted to do it, and I finally had the guts to do it. woohoo for me.
Exciting News
So today I went for my first monthly weigh-in, and while I feel like I have been doing well getting on a scale involves more fear than I would care to admit. Today was no different, but I knew that I had to do it in order to meet the requirements set out by my insurance to get surgery. I got on the scale and the tally was even better than I had ever hoped. I LOST 20 POUNDS THIS MONTH!! This is a big deal as it also serves as motivation to continue trying, and dieting. So yay for there being less Jimmy to go round.
The New Guy
So today was my first day actually on the job, at my new second job. I was kind of nervous jumping in there. I wasn't sure how much I would remember and how rusty I would be, it has been almost 7 years. We started slow and as lunch began to pick up I began to feel more and more comfortable in my new spot. I am fortunate that the people I seem to be working with are pretty nice and friendly. It was no time before I knocking the cobwebs off and feeling at home back on the cook line. Some of the employees that didn't know that I had a history with the company were surprised at how well I did for my first day.
I really like the feeling of being good at something. My current full time position requires me to learn something new essentially everyday. I often times don't feel really good or accomplished at it. While I know being a cook isn't a fantastic job, and I wouldn't consider it as a career, it is still something I can excel at. My trainer only had good things to say about my work and I won't need to work with a trainer any more.
I also like that this gets me up and moving. My full time job is a desk job and while I like it and find it challenging, I have to be pretty sedentary and sit at my desk all day. This I am standing, walking, bending, lifting, and on occasion sliding (not fun and a little scary). I also like that I get to be lots more social at this job. I actually get to talk to people and engage them in normal conversation, this is a refreshing change. So first day was good, and I hope only good is to come.
Secret Love
I have a serious problem. I am SOO in love with
this show. Something about seeing the sports pros of my younger years, go up against guy 20 years their junior and absolutely humiliate them. It makes me giggle like a school girl. teeeeheheeehee
Moonlighting
So I did get the job I applied for last week. I had my orientation tonight. It was long and BORING. They actually use the same orientation films that I showed many years ago as a manager. There is a crap load more paperwork now, but I guess that comes with the times. I hope I can adjust to working 2 jobs, it is a lot of responsibility and I don't want to let anyone down. All I can do is my best and make sure that this goes towards making ends meet better. I am exhausted. It has been a LONG day. I am off to bed now. Night.
Shameful?
Does it make me less of a man if I think
Gilmore Girls is a funny, witty, charming, and entertaining show?
Thirsty
Well I haven't had a carbonated beverage in about 5 days, and I have drank enough water to float Noah and his crazy ark. A step in the right direction, right?
Fortunate
I know I am a big guy, always have been. It is really all I have ever known. I was the kid that had to wear the "husky" sized pants. I was the kid who broke the chair in 3rd grade. I was the one told, "don't worry, he will grow into his weight". I was the guy who had to SQUEEZE into the desks in high school. I was the guy picked on by everyone at school, even the uncool kids. And I was definitely the last one picked for any kind of team.
Being fat is a HUGE part of my life and a huge part of the way I see the world. Because of this I have always thought that my life has been somehow been only lived partially. This could be true, but the people I met at that weight loss session about the surgery made me realize how fortunate I am. Yeah I am really over weight, and maybe someday I will get the nerve to actually put the stats up here but not today, but I am so much better off than so many people that are big.
But the people attending that session were people who could hardly walk, who got winded walking across a parking lot, and cringed at the thought of stairs. I wasn't the biggest person there, nor the smallest and there were people older and younger than me too, but from all the stories that were told I am fortunate that I don't really have all those problems. I never thought I would say that, but I could be a lot worse off. I am surprisingly mobile for a guy my size, I live in a 3rd floor apartment and I would choose it again. I don't get winded by walking. I say all this cause I don't want people to think this is some kind of pity party and some kind of act for attention. Do I want to lose weight? Yes. Do I want to be healthier? YES! But I see myself differently now, I think that I could walk away from this a totally different person. Sure it will take time and effort but I see real potential for change.
Thanks to all the people who have been so supportive thus far with offers to attend Weight Watchers meetings with me. If someone wants to go out and take a walk with me some weekend give me a call. It might not be pretty and I can't guarantee there won't be heavy breathing, but I have to push in order to see improvement.
SO much to cover
I don't know really where to start, today was a most interesting day. I went to my family doctor this morning to get his take on my insurance's requirements for the weight loss surgery. The biggest hurdle I have to cross is a 12 month doctor supervised diet. If I didn't have trouble dieting that long I wouldn't be interested in this surgery, but I move on. My doc recommended Weight Watchers. Now I have never been a fan of sitting in a circle and pouring out my soul to strangers. I don't know how these meetings work but this is how I fear they will end up like that. Next week, will be my inaugural visit, so I am sure I will have a report after I visit.
I took the dog on a walk today to further get in the "Lose weight/Diet" mood. It was pretty enjoyable, and I KNOW she liked it.
I know all that would have been enough for a normal human, but not for me; there's more. I have been looking for a second job recently. I have a good job but I sometimes have trouble making ends meet. I have an old medical bill that I still have to make payments on and will be for some time to come, this is one of the reasons I am so short on cash. Well as I was looking at the Dayton Daily Online, I stumbled across an ad for a cook. A cook position for a restaurant that I worked for many moons ago. I called them up and I actually remember the manager from my days gone by. So I went in and interviewed and I think he really wants to bring me on. They would be real flexible with my current schedule and the wage wasn't bad at all. I find out more on Friday and I would be lying if I told you I wasn't at least a little excited.
I really did. I got my ear pierced. I won't go into details of when or why. The fact is I have always wanted to do it, and I finally had the guts to do it. woohoo for me. 
